The Story of Two:
“Still, what I want in my life is to be willing
to be dazzled- to cast aside the weight of
facts and maybe even to float a little above
this difficult world. I want to believe I am
looking into the white fire of a great
mystery. I want to believe that the
imperfections are nothing- that the light is
everything-that it is more than the sum of
each flawed blossom rising and fading.
And I do” - Mary Oliver

I caught the image of a girl with
flaxen hair, purple flowers on her
pants, and determination on her lips
one fall day in the hills of Montecito.
She floated through space as if wings
carried her. Her silence pulled me
down to earth from the protective
safety of outer space - she, a
magnetic force, that I could not help
but orbit. For far too long I had
wandered - an illegitimate girlsearching
for my other piece. For far
too long my feet never felt planted
or rooted to anything…next to her I
became an oak, my roots hitting the
bottom of the earth’s crust, my
branches touching the sun, my
leaves applauding her arrival…next
to her I was my most brave self. A girl
is unstoppable when she has found
her missing pieces…when she
awakens and finds, where once were
scars, is a knitted heart.
I was told once that the true loves
our lives float in and out of our grasp
as assuredly as the wind catches the
tumbleweed and then lets it go. Your
desire to strangle love breaks only
yourself. It is in that moment of
release that you find yourself. It is in
that space of opening my heart,
betwixt and between, that I have
found my the other side of my heart.
…26 years has come and gone and
my life has never been the same.

Ash Guerrero

Thicker Than Water.